When my first beautiful baby came into the world it was love at first sight - the kind of love that consumes you and leaves you wondering how you could ever love another human being the way you love this chubby tiny bundle. I went back to work part time when B1 was four months old and it was difficult. I had anxiety the night before and I just wanted to stay with her forever, I couldn't imagine being apart from her for so long. Living in a foreign city with none of my own family for support, looking back on those days I’m pretty proud of my hubby and I for the way we juggled working, raising a little human for the first time and living in a foreign country.
Fast forward a year and a half and we decided to trek it back home to give birth to our second little angel and after deciding to stay put I made the decision that I wanted to stay at home to look after both girls. While I have loved being a SAHM as B2 was approaching her third birthday I felt ready and willing to join the workforce again. Now the hard part - what did I want to do? I wanted a job that was flexible and still allowed me to be able to drop the girls to school and be there to pick them up. From this desire came the birth of Bubblegum Couture, it was something I’ve truly always wanted to do but it just never seemed like the right time or life situation.
The road to launching the Bubblegum Couture website has been an extremely long one and it has involved more times than I can count having to take my girls to web design meetings and fabric houses. And they have been absolutely sensational! They have done it all with very little whinging and it makes me feel grateful for the beautiful little family that is mine. It has involved many late nights as the only truly quiet time in our household (as I’m sure with most families) is after the kids are in bed. And yes after a 2am finish time the next day is usually followed with more coffees than usual. At the moment I would say its the adrenalin of creating something that I love and the excitement that the light at the end of the tunnel is just around the corner.
Hopefully this will be my answer to being able to still be very present in B1’s life as she transitions into prep and to enjoy the last of the baby days with B2 as the realisation that my last baby is not such a baby anymore.
So to all the SAHM and to all the working mothers I salute you because both jobs are not easy and quite often the one who is neglected is ourselves but the rewards we get from those little angel faces is so worth it. So I sign off with my very first blog post at 1:20am with the knowledge that someone will be awake in five hours. I am female hear me roar (after my morning coffee ;p).